I'm a Lady

I can tell you exactly how I spent Halloween 2010.  My best friend, Andrea, and I went to a club with her brother, cousin, and his wife.  But that wasn’t even the the highlight of my night.  I mean whatever, it was my first time at a club, ever, and there was guys hitting on me and tryna grope me and what not; they were drunk so it was just gross..so all in all it was just disgusting.  The best part of the night was texting and communicating my every move to this one guy.  Crazy ain’t it?  My ex..God do I miss him.  Even now when I’m close to O.K., I get nights like tonight that could be great, and I would have someone to spend it with, and dress up with, but nope..I ruined it.  David says that I didn’t do anything wrong, that it was just a relationship that wasn’t meant to happen and that’s why it felt apart, but idk..I still think it’s my fault.  This time last year, we were talking and our romance was beginning, it was so great.  He used to check my blog out on the daily, sometimes I wonder if he still does, sometimes I even hope he still does.  Pathetic?  Perhaps, but well, there’s a part of me that just can’t let go..  But who knows, all I know is that this time last year, I was getting ready to go to Sevilla’s dressed as a cowgirl, and I got to text Jason the whole night..and now?  Well, we don’t even talk..